Electrical Socks can be deadly...

In summation of recent events;

- I have returned to Ballarat til the end of Feb
- DJ had to be put down yesterday
- I still have writer's block, and am hoping some good worldbuilding exercises might help.

I'm a little flat right now, so that's all.

Here we are again, back in exams.

I suppose you can expect a flurry of nonsensical updates from me in the future, if last semester was any indication... :3

Stop obsessing over that damn manga Tiz
And that damn game, I don't care if you're in an online tournament in a week, get your head into gear and study!!!!!!!

In other news, I no longer work at Best and Less, as of last Thursday. Finally quit. What with exams coming up, going home to Ballarat for summer and lack of hours ANYWAY, I just said 'no thanks' and resigned.

I felt... oddly sentimental about it. Four years, my first casual job. I know it's weird and soft of me to be like this. I hated it when I started and now it's... over. You know? A part of my life has gone by me... it's a little surreal.

Shut up, I know it's stupid of me. =/ *sigh*

Ahem, that is all. *wanders airily off*

Sometimes, when I occasionally stray into my fanfic-reading ways, I look over some authors notes that are so full of caps, so fullof caffine, of sugar and fake Japanese and squeeing and *guh*...

I just wonder.

Was I ever that bad with my author's notes?

And that voice in the back of my head tells me "You were worse."

Why yes, I do have a major assignment due that I'm hiding from, why do you ask? What's that? I'm updating? Psh.

I've paid for my Manifest prereg, I've orded my Zero costume, Dissidia is preordered and will reach me around the 30th of August! Could life be better? :D

Squall Leonheart
Cloud Strife
Kefka Palazzo
Sephiroth
Terra Branford
Lightning
Noctis Lucis Caelum
Seifer Almasy
Tidus
Zidane Tribal
Cecil Harvey

It is finally COMPLETE. LIGHTNING! SHE LIVES!!!!!!!

After so effing long...

Yes. I am proud of myself.

Hello! Welcome to another awesome edition of....

Updates to LiveJournal at 2AM with Tiz!

*waits for round of applause*

Like I said, it's currently... *squint* 2:21AM and I'm yet again updating LJ at this odd hour. Sleeping schedule? What sleeping schedule?

Much work is to be done over the next week. *looks at Lightning plushie* *looks at half finished Atlamillia chapter*

...you know, I think Liv was right. In 10 years, I might just be up to Queens... *headdesk*

Anyhow, exams Wednesday and Tuesday went... okay. I wasn't expecting much from the research design one, but the practical exam for animal diversity went well. I just wish I'd taken a closer look at my earthworm drawings before going in. *kicks self*

And it just had to be disection of the cockroach mouth. At least I didn't maul the bits as badly as I did earlier this semester. Ugh. I think half of the mouth pieces (read: hypoglottis and half a labial palyps) vanished into the sicking puss that fills a cockroach's body.

Hrm.

Well, still in the mood to write Atlamillia, but I think for now it's time for sleep.

'til next time.

PS.

Squall Leonheart
Cloud Strife
Kefka Palazzo
Sephiroth
Terra Branford
Lightning (85%)
Noctis Lucis Caelum
Seifer Almasy
Tidus
Zidane Tribal
Cecil Harvey

Once again, I really get the impression that I fail at priorities. Of course both of my fanfictions need updating BEFORE I study. Of COURSE. *has just updated CBA and updated Atlamillia last night*

*is cranky*

Maybe it's because I KNOW that I'll have lost interest and plot bunnies by the time my exams are done. >_>;

*sweats* Exam... getting closer... Lightning... unfinished... inspired for my... fanfiction....

*keels over*

Do people know how difficult it is to write a fight scene with a giant flying beast? Or with an indestructable cyborg menace?! >_>

At least writing interactions between characters is always fun. Too bad I've forced myself into a fight scene (that could totes be awesome).

Ahem.

Squall Leonheart
Cloud Strife
Kefka Palazzo
Sephiroth
Terra Branford
Lightning (60%) (*glowers at unfinished plushie* Just the white jacket, shoes, belts, scarf... hair... face... gloves... pauldron...  to go... e_e)
Noctis Caelum (you are going to be waaaay easier than your 'sister' Lightning)
Seifer Almasy (because I sorta promised)
Zack Fair (because you gotta love the guy :D)
Tidus (because he's an epic blitz ace :D)
Zidane Tribal (because I want to make the tail)
*Cecil Harvey (because I'm a masochist with all that elaborate armour to make... *weeps* Do I need to?!)
*Shuyin (*hopeful?*)
*Yuna X-2 (maaaaaybe?)
*Kuja? (can I make hips to do that nasty man-diva justice?)

*debatable

61 days til Manifest. :x Can I get it done?

Exam fever's decided to pop it's head in for a bit.

..about fucking time, man!! I was worried it would be a replay of last semester exams when it simply wouldn't start AT ALL. Glad you showed up this time, buddy.

I blame Dissidia for last year's fizzle out. Still did okay, just, like, 3 points less than the semester before. Once again, I blame the approaching release date for Dissidia. The wait was really intense, so... I feel vindicated!!!! @_@;

Just finished my epic drive to Ballarat after my Saturday shift at the bakery.

T'was hair-raising. Yes indeedy.

... too much caffeine makes me go a little strange and feel rather ill, I've discovered, since my overdose that fine Christmas shift at Best and Less in which I did the graveyard 11:45pm-8:00 am.

And lol at the newest Naruto chapter. Ohohohohoh *Lady Shantotto laugh*

And epic win at Soifon's bankai finally revealed. Wonder what it does.

Squall Leonheart
Cloud Strife
Kefka Palazzo
Sephiroth
Terra Branford
Lightning (10%, in progress)

...I need to get them. =/

Why is it that when Exams or assignments are due, I have the incredible urge to finish my fanfics or make my plushies? WHY?!?!?!

... :I *sews Sephiroth plushie and looks atalmost finished Kefka, Squall and Cloud plushies*

Why yes. It is indeed 6AM and I'm updating LJ. Different, eh? Didn't sleep well last night. My poor sleeping habits are catching up with me, methinks.

...and onto 11 hours of hard labour! To the bakery!

Merri, I'm positive you will get the funny side of this.

"Second year Monash psychology students form Australia, Malaysia and South Africa were required to write up a lab report on an experiment that was not relevant to past research and had little future implications. As hypothesised, students lost sleep while attempting to justify the experiment through past research, resulting in poorly written lab reports. However, it could not be determined if the poor quality lab reports were a product of lost sleep or lack of motivation due to the mundaneness of the task. Future implications include reduced overall marks and a loss of confidence in the psychology department to produce creative and realistic assignments."

^ A fake abstract for the 'real' Monash experiment. Some person in my year level wrote it up and put it on the discussion board. We have to determine if attention, mood and sleepiness is affected by... you guessed it... quality of sleep.

I'm so feeling this right now, but I needed a laugh during my last minute cram to get all their damn assignments in.

*groaaaaaan*

I was going to write tonight, but after this very long and busy week? Who am I kidding?

Lady, when I tell you the bread slicer for sandwich cut is broken (as in, cannot cut your bread) the appropriate thing to do is not huff at me and tell me angrily, "Well, I just won't make asparagus rolls then, will I?"

Good god, woman. We've ordered more blades in for the slicer. Other than that, we're just having to rely on our toast cut...

Oh well. No skin off my nose.

Oh good god. I just had a massive Final Fantasy nostaglia attack. I was going through youtube videos, and I came acros a series of the songs from FFX. To Zanarkand, Tidus' Theme, Battle Theme, Enemy Attacks... ;( I miss my ps2. Final Fantasy X is my favourite and I miss playing it.

At least I have Dissidia to look forwards to - the nostalgia is going to kill me, especially if I complete all possible FFs before it comes out as a dub. III and IV are next on the list, with V as a possible addition to that. I just want to be able to enjoy the naunces of the game. For example... I wouldn't know the significance of Sephiroth calling Cloud a puppet. I wouldn't know why Tidus is so outraged at Jecht's siding with Chaos. I wouldn't understand why Ultimecia is so embittened towards everything, or Squall's reference to time.

Mmph. Late, I'm I'm tired.

Atlamillia

3,005 / 7,000 (42.9%)

Dead Fantasy 1 and 2 have just wowed me. If you are a Final Fantasy fan or a Dead or Alive fan, do yourself a favour and watch these videos.

Dead Fantasy 1: http://www.gametrailers.com/player/usermovies/115884.html

Dead Fantasy 2: http://www.gametrailers.com/player/usermovies/193489.html

Monty Oum is a genius.

Srsly.

You could even say this had broken a bit of writer's block that has been harrassing me for a while. Many thanks to this video!

Uni's a piece of cake.

Except, you know, you eat an off piece of chicken schnitzel because you're idiotic enough to say, "it'll be right".

You then spend the second half of the next day puking up your guts into a bucket.

Genius.

****Note

A lot of my entries are friends only

Urgh, had to work unexpectedly today. Sorry BloodyChaos - maybe we can RP next week? (and believe me, chapter 8 is a whopper for character interaction)

Your Monster Profile

Merciless Hunter You Feast On: Bananas You Lurk Around In: The Ocean You Especially Like to Torment: Pop Stars

Bwahahahaha! [/end Bowser laugh]

Atlamillia's progress meter:

6,953 / 7,000 (99.3%)

...somewhat close!

I just need to finish of a final scene with BloodyChaos, then it's all set.

Your Social Anxiety Level: 64%

You have high social anxiety. You have a pretty serious social phobia, and it effects your life more than you may realize. It's possible that you've made yourself comfortable by avoiding situations you dread. But don't be fooled - you still probably need professional help.

...ouch?

Hm, hm, and what have I done during these holidays?

Absolutely shit-all.

*sigh*

Too lazy, methinks.

Hm, really looking forward to Tuesday, it's gonna be fun. Ash is a genius.

Enough said.

DOOMSDAY.

Today, the random day I picked out a few months back.

Pft.

Never came. Damn. Nothing happened. I kinda expected something to happen... yesterday in fact was the shit day.DOOMSDAY.

I feel rather cheated on the whole.

Hnh... 9 days to go. *chews on lip*

And 6 days before Sammy's ho-down (XP) of an 18th birthday. Scary. Sammy... being the oldest... hardly... possible... *dies*

Hm, just waiting for BloodyChaos to give the fifth chapter of Atlamillia a run-through... I'm kind of itching to post it, it's been a while, after all... *thinks*

I COULD always do that second chapter of Redwing I intended to do... erm... If I remember what was in it... *twitch*

“Excuse me, can you pay at lay-by?”

“Excuse me, can you pay here?”

Those are the two questions I dread most at the moment. The first being someone asking me randomly if you can PAY at lay-by. OF COURSE YOU BLOODY CAN! Take a goooood look at the registers, then take a goooooooooooood look at the registers at lay-by. See a difference in structure? OF COURSE NOT! Use your bloody, god-given SENSE, you pigs! Why am I ALWAYS asked at lay-by if they can PAY? Geez, I wonder how people pay off their lay-bys? Huh, must be because lay-by is just an addition to REGISTER. Only WE let yopu make or pick up a lay-by. Jesus fucking CHRIST.

“Can you get out the back?” Well, GEEZ, can you see a door?! You reckon it’s there for DECORATION? *slaps forehead* But of COURSE, why didn’t *I* think of that when I was walking through it this morning?! ONCE AGAIN, USE COMMON SENSE. Or get the fuck out.

“Excuse me…” You’re only saying that because of HABIT. You don’t care if you interrupt, you only care about yourself and what YOU want. Who cares if I was in the middle of counting pillowcases and YOU want to be let into the goddamn fitting rooms with a million pieces of junk you neither need NOR fit into! I have to stand and wait for your fat arse to move out of the fitting rooms with NO purchase to show for my efforts in maintaining an entirely FALSE cheerful demeanor? Yeah, you drag me from my work (friggin’ counting!) so you could decide how fat those jeans make your arse. It’s all I can do not to SCREAM and ram a coat-hanger through your eye-socket. *snarl*

Another thing I hate: people TELLING you ‘oh, it’s this.’ YEAH, I KNOW. I WORK HERE. I KNOW WHAT SALES ARE GOING ON IN MY FUCKING STORE. YES, it’s 3 for $10, I CAN SEE THAT. I’m not a total RETARD. It will come up on the goddam computer as $3.33 EACH. Now get the fuck out.

And when they question the PRICE. A mother and her snot-nose little BRATS just snap at me today, “It’s on special.”

NO IT’S NOT. It’s an IN-STORE CLEARANCE, because the item you want is marked down because the rest of the world saw it for what it was- an ugly article of clothing. YOU, on the other hand, are too stingy and tight with your cash that it really doesn’t matter.

Or when they say, “I found it on the $7 rack.”

Me: *secretly grinds teeth* Sure, I’ll get that checked for you.

Answer: it was $12, some bimbo with a pram probably was too lazy to put it on the right rack and shoved it on the nearest arm. Then the lady has the utter audacity to SNAP at me. Like it’s MY fault! I just read what the price was when it came up on the screen, then got the price VERIFIED. Can I help it if some idiot was lazy?

Bitch.

In other news: I’ve been down the beach for the past few weeks, so there’s been little activity on the internet front for me. *sigh* Which sucks. Though it will be nice to be down on Wednesday – apparently it’ll get over 40 C… *appreciative whistle*

Hm. I’m plotting Sammy’s birthday present. Maybe with Hannah… should be amusing. That is, if nobody else is doing it.

AND I have to finalize my preparations to make the Ultra-Cloud plushie I’ve been convinced to do. It’ll be the plushie I’ve put the most effort into – I’m even getting long white fur for the hair and dying it yellow. I hope….

Erm… Atlamillia… almost done the chapter. And no, that's not an exaggeration.

*nods*

Numbing... but it might take me months to accept this...

ARRGH, DAMMIT.

Hey, at least I get to SEE my best friend today, and tomorrow...

...not that that's any goddam consolation for next year. Why is it that every time I have a best friend, they're torn from me? Jesus, I have like, this FATE that means any I call my best friend comes to a bad end.

Fuck.

I HAVE NOTHING LEFT IN MY LIFE.

IT'S ALL GONE. Like a bubble just popped like a idiot child, my life - everything I ever wanted - is in FUCKING RUINS. A smoking pile of WRECKAGE. FUCK IT!

FUCK

I HATE THIS FUCKING WORLD.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

I can't stop crying. THERE IS NOTHING LEFT.

I want to DIE. If I wasn't such a big coward, I would have done it myself, but I'M A FUCKING COWARD. There's nothing yet and still I cling to a miserable existence.

...I'm so exhausted that I can barely keep my eyes open. Last night was a killer of a night. It was royally FUCKED. Nightmares were abound, all ABOUT ONE THING.

*hangs head*

I woke up screaming. Damn it... screaming! I haven't done that in years, it's always shock and relief that it's a dream, only that there was no proof that it was a dream when I woke up those 5 million times this morning. I kept hearing things, shivering, crying... it's like I was going mad. And every time I managed to go back to sleep, the nightmares would be there, tormenting me. Repeating... recycling... trying to destroy me. Hitting on my worst fears... god it was so terrible. I never, ever want another 12 hours like that. It was all I could do to stop myself from crying...

*shiver* When I woke up, for good this time, I cried. I let myself... finally. I feel so worthless for not being strong enough to brush it off, ignore it. I feel like breaking my promise.

Just... the loss and lonliness last night... were overwhelming... I... can't stand being alone anymore...

But now I've numbed it all. Everything. So now I'm only left with weariness. Just the need to sleep. But if I sleep, the nightmares will come again.

...not a good mental state to have for my yr 12 Biology exam tomorrow...

Well, my good mood has retained itself! Spent the weekend at Liv's, which was fun.

Chocobo Theme....

So I left there late today. Seriously didn't feel like leaving. It was too much fun.

...but it can't be helped.

Got that English SAC/test on Tuesday, and for the past week that we've been supposed to be preparing for it, what have I been doing? Passing notes with Amy, of course! XD Far more fun than listening to Mr. Miller, or preparing for some stupid persuasive essay. Pft, I can walk that. Wing it. I always do! And I've always had great marks, so I never learned my lesson! Imagine that!

Liv's currently egging me to start writing again. Probably should, just to get my word-flow back again. Might try the gag-story, that's fairly easy to write. Just load it with sarcasm annnnnnd FIRE!

My gawd I'm in a good mood. 0.o Kinda weird, I haven't been in such a good mood for ages!

Hope those flowers work out... *frown* They'd better, or I'm blaming YOU, Liv! (wait, no... that's not right, is it? And between you and me, India's friend Molly was a nutcase)

Bad point of the weekend - today I got my arm caught on a blackberry branch. Very, very thorny. Very, VERY painful. Especially if you are wearing a normal T SHIRT! Ripped a few chunks out of my left arm. That was fairly early in the day... when I got home, I look at the cuts and see they're... kinda... GREEN. Blerg.... and filled with PUS. Bloody disgusting!

Had to clean the scratches out (while wondering how bloody fast germs can move - it was, what, 6 hours?! And I had PUS! Geez!) and put bandaids on. Kinda painful, and considering the place that they are, I had to WAAAAAAAY overdo the band-aiding so it wouldn't peel off my arm. The bad thing is that tomorrow at school everyone's gonna think I'm bloody emo and am just covering up.

Bah.

Just so you guys who read this thing know and will see me tomorrow, it was not an act of emo! @_x;;;;

... I am feeling... extremely happy. Why? I can't say.

Can't wait for the weekend, school is being a total shit ALREADY and seriously, I don't know if I can stand another year there. Gawd, if not for my friends, I'd be outta there already. Oh, that and I'd like my ENTER score. Kinda need it to get into uni... *innocent whistle*

I haven't given this thing a serious update in a while, have I? Well, I guess it's because I was depressed a fair stack for the past few weeks. Really couldn't be motivated to do anything - at all. It was crap. Not planning to do THAT again in a hurry... *mutter*

But for the past week or so, I've been insanely happy. It's been unreal. Fantastic.

...mmm, flowers...

*cough*

Well, in other matters, Atlamillia hasn't even moved in progress (I have a page of the next chapter written out by hand, but I'll be damned if I can be stuffed getting up off my arse and typing it out yet...) and I needed the past school holidays to recover mentally. Which meant I also couldn't type up the gag story I'm writing for my friends. Which is crap, because no writing means no improvement and I need to improve so bad... ;_;

Well, on the first Saturday of the holidays, I went to... *drumroll* MANIFEST! The Melbourne Anime Festival, it was soooooo cool! *squee* *embarrassed cough* The majority of the cosplayers put in stacks of effort into their costume, enough to make ME want to do it next year! I'm gonna try for KH1 Leon. Should be easy, because at least I have the hair and eye colour to make it work...

Bought pocky. Lots of pocky. And some pink things. I've decided I'm hooked. *drool*

At least I saw Liv... after a week of not seeing her at school, I really missed her. *nods* Nicole and her family took me down to Manifest, I'm so grateful to them! *thanks with a bow*

Bought a Mad-Band, pocky, a Naruto-Kyuubi plushie, got Liv that b'day present I promised her (a FMA t-shirt) and got lost trying to find the fan-traders. ^^ I had so much fun!

But next year I WILL try to cosplay, and I want it to be good, so I need a gunblade, a Griever necklace and a Griever keychain... *sits down cross-legged and thinks* Straighten the hair, blow-dry it into shape, paint a scar, go op-shopping to get a bunch of clothes I could make into something like Leon's... Hmmmmm....

I am a A Ivy Dragon!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Ivy Dragon on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, a Ivy Dragon tends to walk the fine line of Neutrality....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos....
As far as magical tendancies, Magical spells come as natural to the Ivy Dragon as breathe from it's body....
During combat situations, the Ivy Dragon shows a preference for the rending and slashing of Hand to Hand combat....
The Ivy Dragon makes it's home in heavily forested areas and sometimes jungles. Ivy Dragon's are closely linked to their environments and well in tune with nature. They are the protectors of the forest, and are sometimes worshiped by druids and elves.'
Ivy dragons gain their name from the powers they have over the plants and animals in their domain. These dragons often link themselves so closely to their territory that they actually entwine part of their life force into the area.'
Because of this, an Ivy Dragons territory is almost always lush and beautiful. The sky is unusually clear and animal life flourishes in a way that seems magical. Ivy Dragons are fierce protectors and will defend their domain with their life, if need be. Ivy Dragon's are have a deep emerald coloring, they are medium sized dragons. Ivy Dragon's are excellent shape shifters. They can use their shape changing abilities to form tendrils or extra limbs in battle to aid them in combat.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Jade, Forests, and Protection

http://Dragonhame.Com



...nice.

A GOLD Dragon Lies Beneath!

My inner dragon is the most honorable of all. I enjoy shape-shifting, humans, and the occasional crusade to save the world. I'm what you might call a Draconic Knight. Click the image to try the Inner Dragon Online Quiz for yourself.



Hm... not bad.

Been really slack lately. Haven't really been in the mood for typing up my life's crisises of late.

And Setsu, the latest plushie, had been done. Not too shabby. Really nice and soft, too. I like him.

...and coming up this week, we have YET ANOTHER TWO DAYS OFF!! *celebrations*

As you can probably guess, that's a very, very good thing. I'll probably be able to finish off those plushies I'm making... >.> <.< Yeah...

I have ideas. About 4 birthdays are coming up in this month alone, so... go figure... easy gift... XD

Urgh, still haven't worked on the latest chapter of Atlamillia. It's taking a while, and I'm slightly distracted by the gag-story/parody that I'm writing for my friends. Hey, at least I'm having fun, right?

...right?

Thanks for the quizzes, BloodyChaos! *loves Vincent* And I don't mind being a Squall...

Ungh... must... finish... article on Labor-infighting... *dies*


THIS IS NEVER GOING TO GET DONE, AND I HAVE TO SEND IT AWAY IN A COUPLE OF HOURS!!!!!

*dies again*

...what's HARD about it is that I have to come up with 400 freakin' words on politics that feels SOMEWHAT balanced! Not full-on ranting about Beazley, not praising him, not being decidedly neutral (it's opinionitive, so it CAN'T be neutral!) and not, again, RANTING AND RAVING. Though if I keep this up, I'm going to die of a heart attack...

..before I can finish Redwing, Atlamillia and the gag-story I'm writing for my friends.

Back's sore, knuckles are freakin' killing me. Should never have missed Olivia and punched the iron bar at the bottom of the table... THEY STILL HURT! I'm kind of worried that yes, I HAVE done something bad to them that's not getting better. *whine*

I'm just in a whiney mood, I think.

Went driving this morning. After going to sleep at 1:30, I woke up at 7:00 and had to go BLOODY DRIVING. Ah well, the roads are real quiet where I live on Sunday mornings, so I guess it's all fair. And I DO have to learn how to drive, so...

...eh. *sleeps*

Eh... missed the driving lesson on the weekend because I was too lazy to get up. NOT my fault I was sleepy. 8:45 is not a decent time to get up! Seriously... *snore*

Maths project... very boring. I hate maths. You might have guessed. I just... don't see any POINT to numbers that really only were made up...

Like the glonkometre system we made in yr 8. Shows that measurement is stupid and that anyone can do it! (maybe not ANYONE...)

^^;;;

Ah, no lead on tonight. Better get a move on with that political piece I'm meant to write for it about Labor in-fighting...